Hi Friends! Wanna hear about our trip to America, the 2nd annual Christmas Cookie Caroling Extravaganza,  and our first shot at throwing a Christmas party for the guys? Then read our newest official newsletter by clicking here on: Rak Teh #11 or on the link at the right of the page.

Feel free to check out our still very new logo (a big thanks to Adrian Young – communications guru extraordinaire at YWAM Thailand) and some photos that we are using to help share about rak teh by clicking at the top of this post.

And if you want to skip the newsletter and go straight to the pictures of the Christmas Cookie Caroling Extravaganza 2009, well, are you sure you want to do that? Really? If so, then just click on the image below, and it will take you to the album on Picasa, but we really do think it’s worth reading the newsletter… and now you know you’re gonna wonder…

On Saturday we were invited to participate in the monthly outreach to our homeless neighbors, planned by ECB (Evangelical Church of Bangkok). This month over 30 volunteers traveled from all over the city to come and hand out meals, sing Christmas carols give practical little gift bags and make friends with the homeless men and women who live all over our neighborhood.

Being a part of these outreaches has really been a treat for us over these last six months. Some friends from YWAM, who are part of ECB, first put the idea together and it has really gained momentum over this year. We love being involved each month, and we especially love that it is just a 4 minute walk from our home to where we meet the group (both in practice and also in principle).

This Saturday’s outreach held an especially emotional conversation for me (Kashmira). I found myself connecting with a woman whose sad situation both mirrored and was a blaringly stark contrast to my own. The group I was in was talking with a young woman who was clearly very sick and laying on a mat on the sidewalk (there was a doctor in the group who was asking her about her symptoms), while I sat back a few feet on a raised part of the sidewalk. A separate young woman approached me very timidly and asked in Thai what we were doing. I explained that we are a Christian group who have come down this month to give gifts and food to people who have hard lives in this neighborhood, to help celebrate Christmas and share God’s love in this season. She told me that she was interested in learning more about God but didn’t know where to go to learn or where there is a church nearby (the reality is that there isn’t any churches nearby). As we chatted more she explained that she is 28 years old, pretty much homeless herself, and sells her body in the neighborhood to get money.

The rest of my group finished talking with the sick woman and was ready to move on, so I asked them for a Christmas gift bag to give her, and someone handed me a children’s gift bag to see if she could give it to a child that she knows. I asked her, “Do you know any kids who might want this little candy and toy bag?” She looked down for a minute and then said, “Well, I have a baby inside. I’m three months pregnant, but my boyfriend threw me out so its just me and my baby. Is it all right if I just take the kid’s gift for myself?”

That insight into her life opened up a whole new wave of compassion and emotion for me – here is a woman who is my age, just a few months less pregnant than myself, who is homeless, dumped by her boyfriend and selling her body to get by. We talked some more and patted each other’s bellies, and expressed a desire to meet again and share a meal sometime.

The nature of the homeless and “working” people in our neighborhood is that we may see each other again tomorrow or not again for a year or even ever. I hope I see her again. I hope I can bring some encouragement and peace to her heart in the midst of her hard situation. Our neighborhood has so many needs and hurting people.

As I write this blog post, Iven and I are listening to an elbum by “ELI”, a musician we love, who has a knack of really capturing God’s compassionate heart in his lyrics. The song that is playing right now is called “God Weeps Too”. It is such a comfort to know that even in the midst of Iven and my often feeling so overwhelmed by the stories and lives of our neighbors and the men we work with, we know that God is present and active in the midst of both pain and triumphs, and His heart is with these individual people so much more than ours ever could be.

The two and 3/4 of us decided to celebrate Christmas morning with a Western-style brunch at a nice restaurant about a 20 minute walk from our house.  As we approached the restaurant we were surprised and delighted to see Wa, the homeless friend whom we know best here in our neighborhood. We haven’t seen him in several months, and there he was “spanging” (asking for spare change) on Christmas morning, right outside the door of our destination.

We sat down and caught up with him before heading in to have a meal (he had already eaten) and then visited with him for a good while and a walk afterwards.  We had a box of cookies with a ribbon on it that we had with us “just because”, which was a treat to be able to give him as a Christmas present.

When he told us that he planned to go to a temple the next day to make an annual homage of remembrance and offering, Iven quickly offered to join him so that he wouldn’t have to go by himself.  You see, Wa literally lost everything in the tsunami – (which struck SE Asia 5 years ago, December 26)  - his wife, 2 year old daughter, business, home and even the fingers on his right hand (they were cut badly while he was digging through the debris, and the ensuing infection was bad enough to require amputation).  Christmas for him is nothing more than the day before the anniversary of his life falling apart.

They met early the next morning and Iven sought to bring him some comfort and support, not through intentional conversation, but simply by being some company. Wa was understandably not interested in talking about the deep things of his heart on that most painful of anniversaries.  This is just one day in his journey of recovery from loss and pain, and he has such a long road to travel in order to be free from the trap of homelessness and alcoholism that now have him so ensnared, and though he is trapped by his grief and the trauma which no one should have to endure, we remain amazed at how he has chosen the path of softness and grief, over bitterness and anger – tears come easily to Wa, most any day, not just this week.  Please be praying for Wa. And also for Iven to know how to love him in the ways that are supportive and encouraging, rather then enabling and patronizing.

During our recent two month trip to America we were able to spend some good visit time with all of our family, which was really a gift.  A few days after Thanksgiving, we were driving around Iven’s small hometown looking for something fun to do, to make a memory with Iven’s 17 year old sister Ally.

In the parking lot of the local drug store an idea hit us, and we ran in to buy a Christmas tree – which would soon become known as our “hostage”.  Tightly bound and stuffed in a seldom used bathtub, hidden behind the shower curtain, the poor little creature waited almost a whole week before we got around to decorating it, all behind the parents’ backs.

The night we finally rescued our “Christmas hostage” from the bathtub was just 5 hours before we had to get up and leave for the airport.  It was a fun, slightly mischeivious little home-based adventure with Ally and a total surprise to Iven’s parents, who awoke the next morning and found that although we were already on our way back to Thailand, we left behind some memorable Christmas cheer.

Right now I am sitting on a train rumbling through beautiful hilly green Thailand, preparing to spend a week of intensive study on the book of acts. It is about 7:30 in the morning and it is gorgeous. So peaceful, not a sound to be heard save the clickity-clack clickity-clack clickity-clack-clack of the wheels and the rail tracks. I never really remember how much energy it takes to simply be in the city, living in our neighborhood until after I’ve gotten a good many miles away.

I tend to forget that I can actually go to beautiful open green spaces. Places where there is room to breath, and fresh air too! And yet I thank God for my forgetfulness, because I think it helps me to understand the experience of our guys a little bit more intuitively.

You see when we are surrounded by a particular environment for a long time, we might remember what other places are like, but we forget that we can actually go there. Instead we just keep plodding along, talking about the outside, but never really doing anything to change our situation.

I’d like to introduce you to “B”. He comes from somewhere not too far from this gorgeous green countryside I’m travelling through right now, but he’s been living in Bangkok with his mom, dad, and twin sisters for a long time. In the months that we’ve known B he has worked at 2 different male massage parlors and presently an A-Go-Go bar. B is my age, “rung-diawgan”. He is bright, generous, easy to hang-out with, and he has been doing this sort of work for a long time now. So have his twin sisters.

One day we were walking in a market on his day off and I asked B, “So what do you normally like to do for fun when you aren’t working?” He replied, “Oh, I like to walk around.” “Where do you go?” “This Market.” “Why” “Because I used  to be a masseuse here too.” “Who do you normally hang out with, who are your friends?” “Friends? I don’t have any friends…. The only people I ever see are my co-workers and my customers.”

“The only people I ever see are my co-workers and my customers.” You see, B works nights, at least 6 days a week, unless a customer has decided to take him away as a private boyfriend for the week. He goes into work in the afternoon, works till early in the morning, and then goes home to sleep for a few hours before waking up late and going back to work.

Even if he wanted to, B doesn’t really have the opportunity to get to know anyone outside of the scene. And so he doesn’t really remember that there is a world outside of the guys streets.

One of the lies that B believes is that he can make more money doing this type of work. There is some truth to that – you certainly make more money in one hour of male sex work than in one hour of just about any normal job. But there is no consistency, sometimes you can wait for a few days in between customers, and then your average income is lower than if you were working at 7-11.

Poverty works in lots of different ways. It is connected to our income to be certain. It is connected to our education. And in significant ways it is related to our network of relationships. If we only know other poor people we assume that life has to keep working the same way for us as it does for each of them, that it will never get any better. We rarely tend to think that we have options outside of the options that our friends are pursuing.

And if, like B, we never have the chance to get to know anyone outside of the industry, then we assume that all we will ever be able to do is the industry!

I am grateful for the chance I have to ride a train this morning, to remember that there are beautiful places outside of Bangkok that really aren’t very difficult to get to. And to remember that sometimes all it takes is our remembering that we can leave, and that things can be different.

Recently Kashmira was walking home from the bus stop by herself in the early evening. We have often seen a homeless family (3 young children) sleeping on the sidewalk, right in the middle of the Loop where guys are waiting for customers.  On this particular night these children were still awake and in the middle of something akin to a pillow fight.

Kashmira stopped and squatted down to say hello to them, and promptly found herself caught up in a combination of play and English practice.  Eventually she asked the children if they lived here with their mom and dad and they answered in unison, “Yes, we live here with our mom and dad…” and then the littlest – an 8 year old girl – continued by saying, “But our dad died this morning.”

Kashmira: “Confused, I thought maybe I misheard her or that she was referring to something else until their mom came from down the block to see who I was. I greeted her with a smile and asked if it was okay for me to visit with the children.  She answered, “Yeah, that’s no problem…their dad died today.”  I asked what happened and they tripped over each other to answer until eventually I understood: “The police arrested him, they beat him up and then…he died.”

Even more unsettling than their announcement was the total lack of emotion on all of their faces.  When I told the mother how sorry I was to hear this she responded with “Mai pen rai – we’re fine, no big deal.”

I just happened to have some coloring pens and paper in my bag, and as I pulled them out the oldest one eagerly asked, “Are you giving these to us??” I answered, “Yes, I’m giving them to you.” So we sat together, coloring on the sidewalk, drawing trees and hearts and no smoking signs, just like normal kids whose father hadn’t died that morning.

It got to be rather late, and when I asked the children if they had eaten yet, they said no. So with their mother’s permission I took them to get some food.  They ate dinner and then I brought them back with some food for their mom, who was by then intoxicated and nearly asleep, said goodnight, and finished walking home.

These three children will remember this day – they will only ever have one day where their father was beaten and killed… and if it wasn’t for God allowing me to walk past them, prompting me to be present for them, these kids would have gone to bed with empty tummies.  But God loves and cares for this family, and he did use me to love them – even in such a small and simple way – and at least on that most terrible of days they were able to lay down to sleep on the sidewalk without hunger tormenting them, and with new coloring pens in their backpack.

Walking, praying and venting to God I felt Him reminding me of the Bible verse, “Its my kindness that leads you to repentance” and was suddenly completely overwhelmed with the deep kindness of God.  Horrible things happen in this world every day, but Jesus weeps alongside those who are weeping – and even alongside those who are not yet able to weep.

Suddenly I felt so significant – even in my smallest of acts of love.  These three children will remember this day – they will only ever have one day where their father was beaten and killed…and if it wasn’t for God allowing me to walk past them and prompting me to be present with them with what I had to give, these kids would have gone to bed with empty tummies.  But God loves and cares for this family, and he used me to love them – even in such a small and simple way – and they will at least lay down to sleep on the sidewalk without hunger tormenting them, and with new coloring pens in their backpack.  Most likely life will get harder for them before it gets easier, but I trust the Jesus that I know to watch over these children and to continue to bring people like myself to love them and bring them a little reason to smile.

It is 10:00 pm on Monday night and I am sitting in the back seat of the #47 bus, on my way home from outreach. I am listening to the Bible (Romans, chapter on my ipod.

Sitting directly in front of me is a ladyboy (the preferred term chosen by transgendered people in Thailand – that is, people who are born biologically male but live lives as females). The person in front of me is wearing a blue mini-tank dress with red cherries all over it. My ipod proclaims in my ear: “Meanwhile, creation is confused, but not because it wants to be confused. God made it this way in the hope that creation would be set free from decay and would share in the glorious freedom of his children.” (Romans 8:20,21) The person in front of me begins putting on powder, lipstick and straightening their ponytail.

My bus stop is coming so I put my ipod away in my purse and get ready to get off. The person sitting in front of me gathers their things as well, as I had suspected they would. I follow them off of the bus and down the road a block until turning left on my road.

I notice them search the faces of the men sitting nearby and then make a suggestive gesture to a man on a passing motorcycle that slowed down to make eye contact.

I was coming to this neighborhood because it is my home. The person from the bus was coming to this neighborhood to look for customers.

I don’t understand that verse in Romans. I am sure it wasn’t written with Thai ladyboys in mind, but even so I don’t know what to make of the idea of God being the one to make creation “confused”. Putting aside what you or I may believe about sexual and gender identity, there is no denying the truth that confusion runs rampant on our street. Regardless of whether that person in the mini-dress “should” be referred to as a “he” or a “she” or some other term the English language doesn’t afford us, I am certain that God’s heart hurts to see them walking the streets of my neighborhood right now as I write this post – looking for men who will pay money to use their body. The people who come to our neighborhood to buy and sell sex are displaying the confusion in creation – confusion about what real love is, and isn’t…and how to fill the ache inside of all of our hearts for true intimacy and real relationship.

What does “glorious freedom” look like? What does it mean to be “set free from decay”? What is our role in this process? How is God calling me to love and share life with the people on our street, with our neighbors and with friends we haven’t met yet? I have many more questions than answers, but sometimes questions are the most honest place to start.

Last weekend an English-speaking church in the city spent their Sunday morning seeking to serve people in need, rather than gathering for their regular weekly worship services.  One of these groups asked us to help out in leading about 30 people to come to our extended neighborhood, share some take-away meals and seek to listen to the stories of people living on the streets.

It was a really special morning.  Ninety meals were given away, lots of stories were shared, prayers were prayed and smiles were brought to the faces of many who may usually have little to smile at.

Kashmira was paired up with two young women who spoke very little Thai; they found themselves sitting on the ground with an older man with sparkling eyes and an eagerness to talk.  We gave him a meal, asked where he was from and told him a little about ourselves.  After about a half hour one of the girls thought to ask if it is common for people to come and share food and talk with him.  He looked thoughtful, then confused and said, “No, I have never had anyone do this.  People just don’t just sit and talk with me like you guys are.  I don’t kow why – I’m easy to talk with….but nobody does.”

It was clear that the gift of a boxed lunch of rice and meat was appreciated by his tummy, but his heart so much more appreciated our taking the time and energy to communicate that he was important, remembered and cared for.  I told him I was so sad to hear that usually people don’t stop and talk with him and that we were really enjoying spending our morning with him.

From Thai National Congress 7

One of my mentors is fond of using the phrase “God has no accent in any language.”  I have heard her say this many times and it has struck me as cute, and even a bit profound, but this last week it really hit home for me for the first time.

All of last week we participated in a historical gathering of representatives from nearly every denomination and ministry across Thailand, for five days of prayer, teaching, worship and unprecedented unity in the Thai church.  It was ALL in Thai and our brains had a hard time keeping up with the long days and many sermons, but it was indeed special to be a part of the experience.

During the opening session, the first night, there was a time when everyone was asked to pray for each other in small groups.  Standing there in this giant auditorium, I was deeply in awe of God.  Over 3,500 Thais (and some foreigners) were gathered there, each talking to God in their mother tongue, and connecting with Him in a personal way.  The vastness of God struck me deeply in that moment – He is able to be fully present and listening eagerly to each one of those prayers, and whether it is in Thai or English or Finnish or Chinese, he understands every word.  Even more so, if I pray in broken Thai, he hears my heart…rather than the words that I pronounce incorrectly or completely omit.  Indeed, God has no accent, and our accents never leave Him confused a bit. J

(To read more about these meetings follow this link to an article that Iven wrote for the YWAM Thailand Newsletter: http://www.ywamthai.org/office/eletter/may09.html)

Now this blog post, by the very nature of its content, is hard to write – though not for the reasons you may be thinking.  Not because it is painful to share, or of a controversial nature, but because it is about oral story – and orality is something that is rather unconventional to write about.

During the middle of April, Iven and I had an opportunity to attend a weeklong training in Chiang Mai (Northern Thailand) with a group called “One Story”.  One Story is a project put together by several mission agencies whose main purpose is to take the stories of Scripture and make them accessible to people groups who either are unable or uninterested in reading. 

Before going to this training we really knew very little about One Story, or what we were going to experience.  It was probably better that way. J  During the week we had the opportunity together with about 30 people to “learn”, “tell” and “devotionally process” about 25 Bible stories – all in oral form.  Nothing was written at all…we weren’t even allowed to take notes and very rarely allowed to open our Bibles. 

It was a powerful and alive method of interacting with Scripture.  Refreshingly ancient, storytelling is an art form that has been mowed over by our consumer culture of sensory overload and sound-bites.  Growing up with a dad who is a gifted storyteller (Iven confidently states that my dad is the best storyteller he knows) I have had an appreciation for oral storytelling from a young age.  When I began to lose my vision at age 16 that appreciation for oral story has grown even more, even as my ability to read printed material has dwindled.

For most Western Christians, reading and engaging with God through written Scripture is one of the most essential and significant means of growing in faith life.  Over the last 12 years of my eye disease, and especially in the last two years, engaging with written scripture has physically become more and more challenging.  Participating in this oral Scripture storytelling workshop was enlightening and exciting on a professional level (I am confident it is a tool that will be very appropriate and accessible in outreach conversations), but I think it was personally significant perhaps to an even greater degree.  Hearing the True stories of God, told by people who really believe them, in a setting where we could celebrate together the parts of the stories that were wonderful and miraculous, and grapple with that which was confusing and strange was so powerful.  Powerful for everyone, but maybe especially powerful for me.  In a profound way, I feel like my proverbial eyes are opened to the wonder of hearing God’s stories in oral form , and I am no longer feeling limited to needing to strain my physical eyes in order to grow spiritually.  Indeed, Scripture itself speaks to the special experience of HEARING the word: “So faith comes from hearing the message, and the message that is heard is what Christ spoke.”  (Romans 10: 17)